I spent the
rest of the evening trying to figure out exactly who Uncle Leo is,
where he comes from, and who his relatives are. Perhaps he is a
father sorely neglected by his self-centered, materialistic children,
who think he is nuts for living in a stone house in the middle of
nowhere, and are embarrassed to be seen with him because he has such
a big mustache. The dopes. They don’t know how lucky they are. They
should be proud to
have such a father, not ashamed. On the other hand, it’s possible
Uncle Leo has no children at all, was never married, and has lived
alone in his stone house ever since his parents died, leaving him
with a big, beautiful, aching heart and a small inheritance of
crockery and dented muffin pans. But there is no way of knowing for
sure, because the little story I wrote doesn’t say.
How does anyone end up alone? That’s the question. We invent new ways every day, I suppose, but the result is always the same. The result is a life full of question marks, which gather by the door like autumn leaves, whispering softly and mourning the passing season. There is no new way to be alone, only an inexhaustible supply of new people to be alone — their anxious faces gazing out in pain and wonder at the streets and fields, far removed from life, or afraid of it, which of course amounts to the same thing.
How does anyone end up alone? That’s the question. We invent new ways every day, I suppose, but the result is always the same. The result is a life full of question marks, which gather by the door like autumn leaves, whispering softly and mourning the passing season. There is no new way to be alone, only an inexhaustible supply of new people to be alone — their anxious faces gazing out in pain and wonder at the streets and fields, far removed from life, or afraid of it, which of course amounts to the same thing.
[From
Chapter 16, A
Listening Thing]
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2 comments:
Wow this is powerful, puts a lump in my throat,you have a way with words. Deb
Thanks, Deb. I’m glad you found Uncle Leo. He has a special place in my heart. And words — well, I think it’s more likely that they have a way with me.
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